I very quickly realised that although I had been dismissed by Pilate, he had not entirely let me go. Everywhere I went I would see someone following me, from the market to the Temple. I suppose they hoped I would lead them to Jesus, but they got no joy out of me. I tried to attend the Sanhedrin, but was barred by the Temple Guards. Joseph was also barred, so we would spend time together sitting in the portico talking, with our eaves droppers listening to our every words. By unspoken consent we did not speak about Jesus, nor did we try to contact his followers. Whatever was going on, they would be in a lot more danger than us if the authorities found them.
This went on for a couple of weeks, and we began to hear rumours around the city that Jesus of Nazareth had come back from the dead, and had been seen by a number of his followers. We heard that Roman soldiers had arrested and flogged a few people caught telling these stories, but it didn’t seem to stop them spreading. Then I had a visit from one of my kinsmen living in the town which I represented in the Sanhedrin. He told me that the council of the elders had been called together the following week to elect a representative for the Sanhedrin. I was not due to retire yet, so I was absolutely bewildered as to who had called for an election. My kinsman said that he didn’t know for sure, but the rumours were that the order had come from the top. I had a long talk with my wife, and then, despite what Pilate had said to me, I set off to return to the place of my birth to defend my position on the Sanhedrin.
On the day of the debate I arrived at the town Synagogue with my kinsman to debate with whoever had been chosen to challenge me. To my complete astonishment it was not a local man, as it should be, but Ananus ben Ananus the youngest son of Ananus ben Seth, and the only one of his five sons not already in the Sanhedrin. So this was going to be a Sadducee takeover of my seat on the Sanhedrin. Sat next to him was his oldest brother Eleazar, who had already served a one year term as High Priest. This was going to be no easy debate, not that I had expected it to be, but something was in the air. The senior Elder asked Ananus to begin. Perhaps I should have been prepared for it, but I had not expected to have to listen to a run down of my interactions with the ‘rebel Rabbi Jesus of Nazareth’; from going to listen to hear him speak when he was near to Jerusalem, to going to visit him at night. I was accused of defending him at his trial in the Sanhedrin, (I was moved to protest at this point, that I had only backed up Joseph when he pointed out that the law was not being fulfilled, but this was just swept over). The Elders were told that I had then gone to the Roman Governor to get his body, which I had buried, and then finally I had stolen it away in the night, leading to the most ridiculous claims that he had risen from the dead, which his followers were now trumpeting over Jerusalem and beyond. All this was said with a look of great sorrow on his face, as his words made me out to be, at best a foolish old man led through the nose by a charismatic rebel leader or at worse an old man who had decided to have one last throw at power, who threw his lot in with a man raising an army to try and defeat the Romans at great cost to the people. When he had finished I was fairly open mouthed. I had not realised how close a watch this lad’s father kept on members of the Sanhedrin. I mentally reviewed all the accusations against me. Well, most of the actions he had outlined were true, what was not true was the interpretation of what I had done, or his view of Rabbi Jesus as a rebel leader. I looked at the disproving faces of the elders, and decided that this was one verbal battle I was not going to win.
I stood up and gathered my cloak around me.
“Many of the actions that you have had laid before you are true, I did go to hear Rabbi Jesus speak, as I suspect many of you did, and so I suspect have both Ananus ben Ananus and his brother, since they are so well informed about what Rabbi Jesus has been teaching. I did go and speak to Rabbi Jesus at night, to have a personal conversation with him. I did raise a point of law during his trial, but every man is entitled to a fair trial. I did go to ask Pontius Pilate for his body to bury it, otherwise it would have been thrown into a pit dug by the Romans, which would have been sacreligious for any Israelite. I did not remove his body from the tomb, nor cause any other man to remove his body, nor have any knowledge of how his body came to be removed from the tomb. I assure you that, on my honour, and you have known me to be an honourable man for these many years that I have served you. Where I accept many of the accusations Ananus has laid on me, what I disagree with is his interpretation of them.”
Here Ananus leapt to his feet and began to talk over me. I stopped, and he stopped. He sat and I continued, with him glaring at me all the while.
“But I do not propose to give you my view of these events. I have at all times acted with honour, for the people of this town, and for Israel and its people, for Torah which I love and have loved from the moment my father whispered the first words in my ear as a baby, and for Yahweh who I love with all my heart. If you do not know this, and believe it, then I am a man without honour among you, and it is time for me to resign and return to my village.”
I looked at the faces around me, and read in them a mixture of disbelief of the innocence of my actions and pride in being singled out by such a well connected young man who wished to represent them now in the Sanhedrin. I knew there was nothing more I could do or say to change their minds, so I went up to Ananus and shook his hand, then turned and left the Synagogue. Moments later I was joined by my kinsman, and we walked out of the town, and in the direction of my village, and the house I still have there.
I returned to Jerusalem the day after the trial – Oh I know it wasn’t really a trial, but it felt like it. I had been found guilty by a gathering of the Elders, on the evidence of two witnesses who agreed, Eleazar and Ananus ben Ananus, and sentenced, to exile from Jerusalem and from all that I am. Yahweh gave me a brain and a heart for Torah. He enabled me to become a member of the Sanhedrin, and I served him faithfully there until now. Now I must return to my village, and be, what?
My wife knew by my face that something had happened to me. We sat down and talked late into the night. The following morning she set the servants packing up and cleaning the house. I went to the gate of the city and sat and chatted with the Elders there. One suggested someone who might like to buy our house, and someone else had suggested a woman he knew who was looking for some good servants. Our servants had been given the choice as to whether they would go into exile with us. One wanted to, but the others had families in the city and did not want to leave them. So we packed our possessions onto some hired donkeys and set off to the village where I had been born and grew up. Before I left I managed to see Joseph. He had been forced to resign, and like me was selling up and moving back to the village of his birth. We had been found guilty of the crime of disagreeing with Ananus ben Seth. His retribution was swift, but thankfully we were both spared our lives. I left Jerusalem never to return.