But, back to the beginning of my life with Isaac again. Not becoming pregnant did not worry me at first. Everything was far to new and exciting, and I don’t think Isaac was too worried either. He just seemed happy that I was happy, and did not regret my decision to leave my home and family to marry him. As the seasons passed, and years past, I noticed that he did become more worried, and things became a bit strained between us. Isaac had talked to me many times about Yahweh and his promises to his father Abraham. Isaac’s mother Sarai had died just before we married. Abraham had married again, and had become the father of more sons. Isaac had always thought that Yahweh’s promises would be fulfilled through him, especially after Yahweh had saved him from being sacrificed by Abraham. Yet here we were with no sons to follow Yahweh. Isaac took to going out into the desert to pray. Eventually it became obvious to me that I was at last pregnant. Isaac was delighted. I was not so. I was so dreadfully sick for the first few months, then as the months progressed I became so large that I could hardly move. In the hot summer heat my ankles swelled up, and all I could do was sit in the shade and wait. Whenever I tried to rest, the baby within me would move and I could see bumps rising on my belly as elbows and knees collided with me as it moved around. It seemed to have an awful lot of knees and elbows. All the other women in our camp said that it was, a very large baby.
I should not have been surprised then, when my time came to give birth, after may hours of labour, a very large, very red faced, very red-haired baby boy popped out. Isaac was absolutely delighted, and named him Esau, on account of all his red hair. I was not interested in his name at all at that point, for the labour pains which should have subsided a bit, got worse again, and before Isaac’s astonished eyes a second baby, another son shot out. This baby was smaller and dark haired and looked much like my brother Laban. I named him Jacob, as he had arrived on the heels of his brother. Isaac took the babies out to meet everyone, and left the women and I to finish the birthing process and to clear up.
It was hard work looking after two babies. Esau was so greedy that he would have sucked me dry. Luckily the wife of one of our herdsmen had recently given birth to a baby who died, so I gratefully handed Esau over to her to suckle. Jacob was such a calm baby. He fed well, but he always looked so frail compared to his brother. As the boys grew up, if there was ever any mischief then it was Esau who instigated it. The number of times Jacob had to come and tell me about something Esau was about to do, which was really dangerous, was beyond number. But Esau didn’t fear me, or my scolds, in fact he is the bravest person I know. This bravery helped him to become a very skilled hunter from a young age. He would spend hours with our best tracker, and had endless patience when it came to sitting and waiting for just the right beast that they wanted. They would hunt not only for food, but to protect our flocks from the wild animals, many of whom fear no man. He and Jacob would spend hours practising with their bows and arrows, until both were able to fire with complete accuracy. I was so proud of them both. I should not have had a favourite really, but Isaac favoured Esau, because he loved the flavours of the wild meat that he would hunt, which was a welcome change from our usual diet of milk and meat from our own flocks of sheep, with fruit, nuts, seeds, wild plants and grains. Jacob was a lot quieter, and spent a lot of his time helping look after the animals, which we have in abundance. He is particularly called on at the birthing time, and he is so gentle with the females giving birth. He has become skilled at assisting them, and rearing their young by hand if they are rejected by their mothers.
Over these last few years our flocks and crops have grown and prospered in the care of our sons, and Isaac and I spend more time settled in one place so that we can grow the crops we grew when we were in Philistia. Yahweh has indeed been very good to us.